New Thing

These days, I enjoy my school life very much, especially club activity. As I wrote before, I am belong to sokyoku club( Japanese music club). I play koto in this club. I started playing it in this university. I really enjoy practicing it. I played some instruments in junior high and high school. But they were Western instruments and this is my first time to do Japanese music. All things are new for me, so I am excited every day. It was right decision to enter this club.

In fact, I thought that I wouldn't enter this club. I have wanted to play Japanese instruments from long time before, but I felt that the atmosphere of this club didn't match my character when I visited this club on Freshman Week. Seniors were not kind and sociable, and the freshmen of this club looked putting on airs. I thought that I wouldn't be able to make any friends.

But I wanted to try new things and expand my horizon. I wanted to meet a lot of people and learn many new things. So, I decided to enter this club.

I want to thank to a senior for good care. I said that many seniors were not kind just now, but there were some seniors who took care of freshmen gently. I am one of the freshmen who was helped to decide their entry. I met him for the first time on Freshman Week and after that, I began to consult with him about the club. When I was in trouble to decide whether I entered or not, he always heard my worries and gave me some advice. He was a good senior. It is not too much to say that I entered this club because he was kind and good senior. I won't tell my gratitude for him to him, and besides that, he may think of me just a junior. But I personally think that he is especially a good senior and respect him secretly. The best thing is that I enjoy this club from the bottom of my heart now. His personality might lead me to enter this club, but the reason of my entry has changed. I come to love this club really. I love my mates and koto now. I made a right decision and I am glad to experience  a lot of things. I have a concert on 3 July and I am looking forward to play with seniors. He usually plays the another instrument, but he plays koto with freshmen now. So, I want to practice with them and become closer.

I started this instrument in this university, so I have to make a lot of effort in practice. Actually, I practice hard every active day and sometimes go to practice willingly. Today, I went to practice with some mates. The other day, my teacher said to me, "You have a good sense, and I'm looking forward your growing skills after this." Also, yesterday, the another teacher said to me, "Your tone color is beautiful." Honestly, I was so glad to hear that. I was really happy. But, at the same time, the uncertain thought occurred to me. I couldn't believe their words entirely. In junior high and high school, my teacher wouldn't praise us. So I felt uneasy to hear their words. I had no confidence to fulfill their expectations There was a dilemma in my heart - happy and uncertainty. I want to believe their words and to be pleased. But I tend to feel so happy that L relay my efforts when I am praised. So, I don't believe my good reputation as much as I can do and make myself think that I have to practice hard still more. . . . In fact, I am so glad to be expected. I hope that the expectation will encourage me to improve my skills more.

Anyway, I like sokyoku club and enjoy it these days. Of course, it is hard for me to do well all things - sokyoku club, E.S.S., part time job and study. But I can meet and find something new every day and learn a lot of things from that. I like talking with mates and extend the circle of them. The day before yesterday, I ate lunch with all mates of sokyoku freshmen at 3 building cafe. Yesterday, I ate lunch with some mates at SUBWAY. We enjoyed talking with each other. There are many people who have strong characteristics. At first, I didn't like that. But now, I like the variety of them and find that they are interesting.

I hope that this enjoyment will last after this and live a satisfied university life with nice mates in this club.