Individuality - to be myself

These days, I don't have good topics to write on my blog. So, I want to write self-introduction again. There is a little difference between this time and the last time. This time, I want to write about my characteristic. I am often said that I am a unique human. And I often think that I tend to think about something from the view which are different from other person. But I don't know whether this means good or bad. I hope that this is a good thing. Anyway, I introduce what makes me original.
※ I am always ordinary people in front of friends who doesn't have close relation with me. So I want to introduce myself to you who are not familiar with me.

-paintings and designs
I have liked drawing a picture and looking at pictures since I was young. When I was a kindergarten student, I was always painting and running(I was good at sports at that time!). I was unsociable and poor at making friends. But I liked working alone and I often succeeded in painting and handicraft classes (and running and swimming classes). My painting was sent to an exhibition and I got a prize. But the exhibition was hold by a city and the prize was not so valuable. . . But I was good at paintings and I liked them. In an elementary school and a junior high school, my painting was selected as the exhibit by school every year too. and I often got an award. My grade of an art class in junior high school was always 5 (There were five steps of rate) in whole three years. But I became busy because of club activity. I was greatly interested in music and I didn't have enough time for painting. In fact, I wanted to go to art school instead of studying English Literature. But I didn't have good talent of art, and also, I had to think of obtaining a job. So I gave up my dream. But I like paintings(drawing and looking at) as a hobby now. I want to deepen my skills.

-a pencil
I like pencils. I like writing in pencil. They are very flexible. You can change the depth of colors and touches from lightly to heavily or delicately to roughly. But you can't this if you use a propelling pencil. There may be two reasons why I like using a pencil. As I wrote above, I like pictures(paintings and sketches) and I used to using pencils. So I like the touches and function of them. Also, I was belong to music club in junior high and high school and my music teacher taught us a lot of things. When you take notes on a page of music you should use a pencil. Writing in pencil is easier to write in again and again than using a propelling pencil. You will feel comfortable to use a pencil.

-ignorance of geography(a lack of common)
I don't want to show my foolishness. But this is actually the part of the symbol of being myself. I'm not interested in geographical features at all. So I can't keep in mind which country is there and where it is. I can't tell you every part of Japan. I feel ashamed. But I can't remember.
The other day, something ashamed happened to me. When I was asked what langage is spoken in Canada, I answered that it was Canadian. I didn't know. I was laghed at and felt ashamed. I thought that I was not a university student, was a elementary student. I was ashamed of myself and depressed. I want to and have to acquire an education.

. . . . . Would you understand my character? I will be glad if you get something about me.
In fact, having some features which makes me original, there are vague things in my character. I don't have something that I am longing for. I don't have anything that makes me devote myself to. I can't find what I really want to do. This is my falt. I have many favorite things. But I like them equally and I can't say that I like it from the bottom of my heart. I want to get something that I really like and add it to my character.