need changes

A half year has passed since I entered this university. At first, everything was new for me and I was excited every time although I have both feeling expectation and anxiety. So, I enjoyed and satisfied with my school life. These days, I become used to my school life and probably I just get safely through my days. I don't do my best, I don't challenge anything, I just pass my life uneventfully. I want to do new things! I want to see a play, go to a concert, and go to a trip. When I was a high school student, I didn't much money and time because I was in a brass band club and I went to school every day to practice. But now, I have more money and time than before, so I can do new things.....I should be able to do new things, but, I don't do new things these days. I think that that is because of my mind. I want to change my mind. How can I do? Should I clean my room? Should I buy luxuries? I wonder. Anyway, I want to bring about a change in my mind not to enjoy my life, not to pass my life safely.

I don't have a part time job unusually, so I have a holiday today although unfortunately it is rain. That reminds me, it often rains when I have a holiday. Even I had a plan to go to somewhere, it rains and I can't go to there and just stay my house. I am not a lucky girl. Today, I wanted to go to a museum and a shop which are for Zyunnichi Nakahara. He was a girl's magazine artist in showa era. I didn't know him until last month, but at the moment I looked his paintings on a magazine I was attracted by them and I am interested in him now. He draws pretty pictures and they give me a feeling like a dream when I look at them. I wanted to see them directly, but unfortunately it was raining. I couldn't go to there. Instead of that, I went shopping and I bought black shoes which I wanted since before. But I still regret not being able to go to a museum...

Actually, I don't have good events to write about on this blog these days. Since autumn semester have started I have just passed ordinal days. I go to school and do club activity or do a part time job. I want more exciting event. Everyday is calm for me. I take a lunch out of a university with my friends and eat new menue these days, they are interesting but not enough. I go to a dinner with my friends after club activities these days, they are enjoyable but not enough. I can't be satisfied with my surroundings and environment these days. What happened to me? After all, does that mean that I need some change? I think so. I will change my mind and I hope that I will be able to write good news on this blog next week.