A half year has passed since I entered this university. At first, everything was new for me and I was excited every time although I have both feeling expectation and anxiety. So, I enjoyed and satisfied with my school life. These days, I become used to my school life and probably I just get safely through my days. I don't do my best, I don't challenge anything, I just pass my life uneventfully. I want to do new things! I want to see a play, go to a concert, and go to a trip. When I was a high school student, I didn't much money and time because I was in a brass band club and I went to school every day to practice. But now, I have more money and time than before, so I can do new things.....I should be able to do new things, but, I don't do new things these days. I think that that is because of my mind. I want to change my mind. How can I do? Should I clean my room? Should I buy luxuries? I wonder. Anyway, I want to bring about a change in my mind not to enjoy my life, not to pass my life safely.
I don't have a part time job unusually, so I have a holiday today although unfortunately it is rain. That reminds me, it often rains when I have a holiday. Even I had a plan to go to somewhere, it rains and I can't go to there and just stay my house. I am not a lucky girl. Today, I wanted to go to a museum and a shop which are for Zyunnichi Nakahara. He was a girl's magazine artist in showa era. I didn't know him until last month, but at the moment I looked his paintings on a magazine I was attracted by them and I am interested in him now. He draws pretty pictures and they give me a feeling like a dream when I look at them. I wanted to see them directly, but unfortunately it was raining. I couldn't go to there. Instead of that, I went shopping and I bought black shoes which I wanted since before. But I still regret not being able to go to a museum...
Actually, I don't have good events to write about on this blog these days. Since autumn semester have started I have just passed ordinal days. I go to school and do club activity or do a part time job. I want more exciting event. Everyday is calm for me. I take a lunch out of a university with my friends and eat new menue these days, they are interesting but not enough. I go to a dinner with my friends after club activities these days, they are enjoyable but not enough. I can't be satisfied with my surroundings and environment these days. What happened to me? After all, does that mean that I need some change? I think so. I will change my mind and I hope that I will be able to write good news on this blog next week.
2011年10月23日日曜日
2011年10月17日月曜日
What do I want to?
These days, busy days came back to me. I have a lot of things to do. From this semester, new teachers teach us in Speaking Skills and Reading classes. Our teachers give us a lot of homework, so in this semester, it is more difficult to coexist than in spring semester. And I am worrying about my school record. In fact, my grade in spring semester was better than I had expected and I felt easy. But in this semester it seems difficult to get good results as I got in spring semester, because I don't have the passion to study hard now and it is natural to deserve bad results for not having studied hard in summer vacation. Besides that, we sokyoku club have the regular concert in December, and we have to practice hard and have a lot of works. I should take back what I couldn't get in summer vacation and manage to do well what I have to do.
It is true that I have to put my efforts to studying, however, actually I want to do my best in sokyoku club. I love this club and these friends. I like the days of the club activities in a week, I am looking forward practicing and talking with these friends.
As I said above, we have the regular concert in December. This is the only concert that all members of this club can play on a same stage together. Also, this is the last concert for seniors. They leave this club after this concert. So, we want to make a great concert by all means.
At the end of this concert, we have a big ensemble that all members play own instruments. Unfortunately, we freshmen participate in this ensemble only as singers because this music is so difficult for us. But we enjoy singing to this music that all elders plays enjoying. We have big ensemble every year, and there are fourmusics for this ensemble and they change every year. So, this music that we are going to play on this year's regular concert will be played after four years when we freshmen become seniors. This year, we play Doukan(道灌) by Michio Miyagi. We are looking forward to playing this music with elders. We like this music very much. I hope to practice this big ensemble soon.
I don't know what I have to do now. What should I do in this university? What should I do before I graduate this university? What should I do not to regret what I did before? I don't know whether what I do now is
right or not. There are a lot of things that I want to do. I want to improve my English skills, I want to study literature hard, I want to find what I really want to do in my life, I want to do my best in a club, I want to learn what is useful for work, I want to meet many people and see new ideas, I want to challange new things, I want to make wonderful memories with my friends. I want to live my school life happily. I want to make my school life lead to my future. I want to live my life doing my best, giving up nothing. In autumn semester, I want to manage many things I have to do doing my best!
It is true that I have to put my efforts to studying, however, actually I want to do my best in sokyoku club. I love this club and these friends. I like the days of the club activities in a week, I am looking forward practicing and talking with these friends.
As I said above, we have the regular concert in December. This is the only concert that all members of this club can play on a same stage together. Also, this is the last concert for seniors. They leave this club after this concert. So, we want to make a great concert by all means.
At the end of this concert, we have a big ensemble that all members play own instruments. Unfortunately, we freshmen participate in this ensemble only as singers because this music is so difficult for us. But we enjoy singing to this music that all elders plays enjoying. We have big ensemble every year, and there are fourmusics for this ensemble and they change every year. So, this music that we are going to play on this year's regular concert will be played after four years when we freshmen become seniors. This year, we play Doukan(道灌) by Michio Miyagi. We are looking forward to playing this music with elders. We like this music very much. I hope to practice this big ensemble soon.
I don't know what I have to do now. What should I do in this university? What should I do before I graduate this university? What should I do not to regret what I did before? I don't know whether what I do now is
right or not. There are a lot of things that I want to do. I want to improve my English skills, I want to study literature hard, I want to find what I really want to do in my life, I want to do my best in a club, I want to learn what is useful for work, I want to meet many people and see new ideas, I want to challange new things, I want to make wonderful memories with my friends. I want to live my school life happily. I want to make my school life lead to my future. I want to live my life doing my best, giving up nothing. In autumn semester, I want to manage many things I have to do doing my best!
2011年10月8日土曜日
My Summer Vacation
I can't believe that a long summer vacation has already ended! I had thought that 2 months was too long for summer vacation. But, now I am surprised that time fly so fast. Could I enjoy my summer vacation? Maybe I enjoyed it and I have learned good things through my vacation. So, for the most part, I enjoyed it and feel happy to have experienced good things, but for some part, I regret not having used my vacation usefully. Anyway, this year's summer vacation was better than last year because we didn't have to study so hard and could do what we want to do.
If I were asked to express my summer vacation in one word, I will say "busy". I am belong to sokyoku club and E.S.S., and do my part time job. It was hard for me to coexistent them well as in spring semester. On August, both club and circle had summer camp and I participated in them. Both summer camp was held in Nagano prefecture and sokyoku summer camp was succeeded by E.S.S. summer camp, so I could go to both camp. Actually, I enjoyed sokyoku summer camp but I couldn't do in E.S.S. summer camp. That' because I couldn't participate that circle many times and preparation for that camp was not enough. So, I want to show you my happy memory at sokyoku summer camp. ※I don't say that I don't like E.S.S.!
That camp was not enjoyment, that was for practice. So we practiced own instruments from morning to night. And we stayed for 8 days there, that was long camp. It was hard for us to keep practicing with no enjoyments. We got up at 6:30 and begin to practice from 8:00, and practice, practice, practice, lunch(only 30 minutes!), practice, practice, practice practice. . . Until 11:30(P.M.) we practiced, and after that time we practice again if we want to. This schedule was hard in both physical and mental health. But we kept practicing hard and doing our best because we like playing instruments and love sokyoku mates. Although I wrote as if I couldn't enjoy this camp, actually I had a good time! Well, it is true that we had hard schedule and got tired, but that camp was so wonderful. We could grow as a human than before and our relationships become much closer through this camp. Now I think that the reason why I am satisfied with this camp is that this camp was for practice not for enjoyment. It may be difficult to pass whole a week without daily surroundings like a school, part time job, cell phones and TV. It was precious to do only one thing enthusiastically not paying attention to other things. I enjoyed this camp and my skill of playing improved much better than before. We have a regular concert in December, so I want to keep practicing hard and be able to enjoy that concert.
In my summer vacation, I enjoyed club activities, part time job, playing with my friends and visiting somewhere. But I couldn't enjoy studying. I regret not studying at all in summer vacation. I paned my studying schedule before my vacation starts. But I couldn't put it into practice and I didn't study at all. My English skills haven't improved at all.
I want to and should study hard in Autumn semester and I hope that I can write this blog easily and smoothly by the end of this semester.
If I were asked to express my summer vacation in one word, I will say "busy". I am belong to sokyoku club and E.S.S., and do my part time job. It was hard for me to coexistent them well as in spring semester. On August, both club and circle had summer camp and I participated in them. Both summer camp was held in Nagano prefecture and sokyoku summer camp was succeeded by E.S.S. summer camp, so I could go to both camp. Actually, I enjoyed sokyoku summer camp but I couldn't do in E.S.S. summer camp. That' because I couldn't participate that circle many times and preparation for that camp was not enough. So, I want to show you my happy memory at sokyoku summer camp. ※I don't say that I don't like E.S.S.!
That camp was not enjoyment, that was for practice. So we practiced own instruments from morning to night. And we stayed for 8 days there, that was long camp. It was hard for us to keep practicing with no enjoyments. We got up at 6:30 and begin to practice from 8:00, and practice, practice, practice, lunch(only 30 minutes!), practice, practice, practice practice. . . Until 11:30(P.M.) we practiced, and after that time we practice again if we want to. This schedule was hard in both physical and mental health. But we kept practicing hard and doing our best because we like playing instruments and love sokyoku mates. Although I wrote as if I couldn't enjoy this camp, actually I had a good time! Well, it is true that we had hard schedule and got tired, but that camp was so wonderful. We could grow as a human than before and our relationships become much closer through this camp. Now I think that the reason why I am satisfied with this camp is that this camp was for practice not for enjoyment. It may be difficult to pass whole a week without daily surroundings like a school, part time job, cell phones and TV. It was precious to do only one thing enthusiastically not paying attention to other things. I enjoyed this camp and my skill of playing improved much better than before. We have a regular concert in December, so I want to keep practicing hard and be able to enjoy that concert.
In my summer vacation, I enjoyed club activities, part time job, playing with my friends and visiting somewhere. But I couldn't enjoy studying. I regret not studying at all in summer vacation. I paned my studying schedule before my vacation starts. But I couldn't put it into practice and I didn't study at all. My English skills haven't improved at all.
I want to and should study hard in Autumn semester and I hope that I can write this blog easily and smoothly by the end of this semester.
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