Everyone knows his name

I like drawing a picture and I'm interested in art.
These days, I like Taro Okamoto. He is well known for "a tower of the Sun(太陽の塔）".
He is not rated highly as an artist, but he gets a lot of praises as a writer.
Last month, I bought his book"Have a poison in yourself(自分の中に毒を持て)".The ideas in this book were very novel and made me interested in his life.
I want to introduce some saying and ideas of him. But I don't know the translation is correct or not.


 He said "I don't care about how things come to an end. It makes your life glow to think a bad result is better and bet your life."and "It is stupid to give up your dream with a subtle thought of uncertainty. To be a real man is to put yourself into a bad situation, and fight against yourself and be the master of your own destiny. To give up your dream before you take actions is the proof that you lost your presence."

I was overwhelmed when I read this book for the first time. These ideas were completely new to me.
When he has no idea about which way he should go, he always takes a bad one. At any time, he put himself in danger and struggle hard as long as there is breath in his body.
This way of living is hard but stimulating and interesting. I always thought that the more effort you make, the better result you have. That is because I wanted to get a good result that is not a fake. But it was not a concern for him. Happy life is not necessarily a wonderful life. To live greedily means to live as a real man. It is important for him not to set a limit and to continue to make progress as a human being.


He also said "It is important to have an absolute pride, not a relative pride.You must have a pride against yourself. To have a pride against other people means that you think of yourself on the basis of them. That is not a real pride. Even if someone speak ill of you and call you a fool, feel that you are living your own life. That will be a real pride."

The word "absolute pride" is my favorite word. I often think that I am a inferior human being to my friends. And I feel disappointed. So, I struggle to be a superior person. But I can't be such a person. Then, I lose confidence in myself and feel loneliness. In the end, I have no idea about who I am.
So, this idea of him encouraged me. This gave me a way of positive thinking.


Also, I like these phrases,
" They are still eyes, even if you erase the eyes from the place where they should be. On the contrary, they become fake eyes and the presence of them stands out. The face that has no features gives me a stronger presence than the face that has a good appearance."
"It is uncertain whether you see the colors and shapes on a picture in the way that a lens of camera reflects an image of an object. You think that the objects that you see are real. But, you may see just what you want to see imaging them on your hart.

As you see, his ideas are creative. And they give you a new way of thinking that you have never thought of.
They stimulated me to live a human life.
I want to go ahead without losing my personality.